POISON I DRANK FROM

by Bryan Free

/
  • Streaming + Download

    Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.

      $1 USD  or more

     

1.
04:15
2.
03:26
3.
03:28
4.
5.
04:23
6.
7.
02:42
8.
02:36
9.
07:12
10.
11.
03:31

about

Poison I Drank From, my first official album, was written during 2002. It followed up a demo of even older songs called Home Is A Place People Leave--of which from 2001-2002, I handed out (literally) thousands--the covers each individually made with newspaper clippings. P.I.D.F. was my first foray into full-band arrangements of BF songs, and it continues to be nostalgic for me. It was released at Artichoke Backgate Stage in Portland on April 11, 2003.

credits

released April 11, 2003

Written, produced, and performed by Bryan Free, engineered and mixed by Kris Crummet at Interlace Audio in Hillsboro, OR. Mastered by Moe Morales at Superdigital in Portland, OR. Jason Schwanz played electric and upright bass; tenor sax by Bret Vogel. Additional vocals by Laura Duzett. Art by Brandon Buerkle.

tags

license

all rights reserved

about

Bryan Free Portland

contact / help

Contact Bryan Free

Streaming and
Download help

Track Name: VISION
i went awalkin a ramblin dream
i came to a door in a wandering stream
it piled up the current, folding the waves
collecting in baskets the river i made

this is a vision of the things that i love
even in dreams i can’t get enough
where am i going and what do i have
what do i have to give up if i have to go back

you were a guide that i met on the way
kissing my mouth with the words of the saints
holding me up in the current at night
holding me up when i didn’t have the fight

we are the homeless, the makers of time
the lovers of being and the poets of lies
we live in our bodies and we sidestep the shore
walk into each other, the house of the lord

this is a vision of the things that i love
even in dreams i can’t get enough
where am i going and what do i have
what do i have to give up to get back
Track Name: JUST ACTING
we met in a movie
we were pretending
all this time
not really

you were convincing
you even convinced me
all this time
just acting

you made a good call
kept it professional
all along
i could’ve sworn that you knew

then when the names roll
the audience goes home
and we’re alone

that’s when i realized
that i was in disguise
but you played along
and i could’ve sworn that you knew

we met in a movie
we were pretending
all this time
just acting
Track Name: MEMPHIS
dahlia called up earlier
said she’d make me dinner
cause now you know you hold my interest
but i was stuck in headphones on a bus
knew you were playin rufus
starin gently out the window comin home

it’s a long way to memphis
and this car won’t get us close
but mostly i just want to spend some time with you
and we don’t have to talk
you can just sleep while i drive

last night we watched the rain fall
little rings of silver
later you drummed your fingers
dreaming of the rivers in france
and who you would end up with
but i got stoned and listened to the bends

it’s a long way to memphis
and this car won’t get us close
but mostly i just want to spend some time with you
and we don’t have to talk
you can just sleep while i drive

if you wake to find we’re broke
down in nowhere
turn it up and let the battery run low
Track Name: GONE IN AN HOUR
pushed aside the feeling and that was wrong
like if i moved i would improve all of these lonely songs
why do i get restless, feel like moving on
why do you ask me when i can’t give you an answer
i know it’s not my turn to be the victim
but really what does that mean

if you’re tired, don’t wait alone
i can be here all night
but if you’re tired, don’t lie alone
i can be gone in an hour

i got back from memphis with a white streak in my hair
you had the look of someone overlooking everything
god, i missed the weather, but i didn’t miss the waiting
and i didn’t miss the feeling like i’m overlooking everything
i know it’s not my turn to be the victim
i wish i knew what that means

if you’re tired, don’t wait alone
i can be here all night
but if you’re tired, don’t lie alone
i can be gone in an hour
Track Name: PATHLESS
over the canyon she’s high, waving her arms
a silhouette over the water
no one can claim her but someone still taught her to climb
somebody’s losing a daughter
oh sometimes a child wants to walk alone

pathless, waiting for the world
to explode or to turn, flood or to burn
that’s how it ends, how it begins
dyin to learn how to learn
it goes slow, slow, slow

this song goes out to my mom, worried i’m dead
hitchhiking out on the highway
callin her friends just to brag that her boy’s in a band
prayin a good girl will find me
but oh sometimes i just have to wander alone

we’re born
we live for show
to be shown
to begin
to begin again
we begin
pathless
Track Name: LOVE & SUCCESS
twenty miles up vandeschere i’ll park
inside the grass and watch the hillside get dark
and rollin down my window I can feel
the wild underneath burying my wheels

and I guess I understand a little better now
how lovin you is drowning in a field
how I can break it down but I will never see out
of this mystery

so I left the hill for the orchards and the barn
I stood and listened to the pounding of their hearts
and I wondered if they thought about the day
what does it mean
what is this real estate sign that says for sale

and I guess I understand a little better now
how lovin you gets mixed up with success
i get so afraid of selling you my failure
i forget to give my best

but i will never know you

and i’m lying when i write this i don’t understand
and if i fall in love it won’t be like i planned
these aren’t my words
they’re not my notes
they’re not my songs
they’re not my hands

but i will never know you
until i understand that i will never know you
Track Name: BRIDGE
if i kiss your mouth
the bridge that we are making
love could walk across
a world we know is waking

all we know of ocean is a pail of water
hanging from a handle we hold
salt-water in a desert that we always wander
baby, baby, i thought you’d know

this of course won’t last
but stay just for the evening
years from now we’ll ask
was our love worth believing

listen, i get scared of what i can’t control
but i suppose that you already know
no one said you can’t do better on your own
but i’m afraid i don’t want you to go

so if i kiss your mouth
the dream we are unwaking
love could mend or cross
the hearts we might be breaking
Track Name: BLEEDING
one more step and you’ll be dead
she sits down beside the ledge, overcoat over her legs
she holds a candle to her chest
and she would light it, but the satellites would see

why can’t i please everyone
and why am i always bleeding all over everyone
it’s harder to breathe when you speak for me

i wish just once i could be right, she said, but not about the suicides
or aliens, or violent dreams
i wish you knew i knew the truth, but this shit comes out
so different than the news

why can’t i please everyone
and why am i always bleeding all over everyone
it’s harder to breathe when everyone speaks for me

well i’m not tryin to ease your mind, when you leave tonight
be careful who you’re talking to and why
and don’t be different don’t be strange, don’t even speak if you make waves
we don’t need new ideas

if they don’t please everyone
Track Name: NOCTURNE
lady, left your lover in the rosebeds
dangling underneath the hanging vine
with his shirt unraveled and his hair down
dreaming of his lover at his side

lady, met your lover in the winter
watching other fireplaces burn
huddled there together while the wind turned
waiting for the season to turn

love is like a hornet, waiting underneath the snow
delicate and dangerous but slow enough to hold
it’s easier to handle when your hands are not so cold

she was just a baby when i found her
wandering the white december hills
whispering the cold would never leave her
whispering my fortune to me still

love is like a hornet, waiting underneath the snow
delicate and dangerous, but slow enough to hold
it’s easier to handle when your hands are not so cold
it’s easier to suddenly let go
Track Name: EVERYTHING'S FINE
words come out
when the mood is right
there’s a broken room
from the mood last night
just like

you got turned
like the bedroom drawers
like a dance we learned
on a hardwood floor
just like everything’s fine

hate this hate
i would love my life
if the man I was
wasn’t someone I’m
just like

everything’s fine.
Track Name: EULOGY
goodbye brother david and goodbye my james-john
the poison that you drank from is blood that i belong to
and stars keep on exploding a million miles away
and bodies break and die and feed the living part of me

two northwest boys are born in riverbeds and tanglewood trees
summer jobs, pretty girls, and baseball, and evenings cheap
the older boy was born to play the music, born to really see
his brother listened to the pictures, and told me what they mean

and one by one we killed the new year, we drank the wine glass dry
fallin down, and tryin to get back on the ceiling,
where the world’s not black and white
yellin at the rainclouds that the earth is still as pretty as the sky
i don’t remember who was wrong, i can’t remember right

goodbye brother david and goodbye my james-john
the poison that you drank from is blood that i belong to
and stars keep on exploding a million miles away
and bodies break and die and heal the living part
of everyone i overlooked and everything i didn’t say

remember me

and every time i think i’m getting better, i’m slain